Have you been wronged? I mean deeply wronged – where someone has treated you, or someone you love, so badly that it physically hurts when you think about it? If so, perhaps you have found that people roll out platitudes that what you need to do is forgive the person who hurt you, so that you don’t end up bitter. Well, in my personal and clinical experience that can be deeply irritating, hurtful, upsetting and really, really undermining and minimising of the pain you are in and the experience you have been through. It is NEVER helpful for people to talk about the onus of responsibility being on the person who has been wronged to forgive.
However, it is true that bitterness is bad for us; mentally and physically. Research has shown that unforgiveness and bitterness can have serious negative consequences for both our physical and mental well-being.
So, to my way of thinking, there’s a tension. On the one hand I get very uncomfortable when I hear people telling others who are in pain and who are quite rightly angry, that they need to forgive. How dare anyone tell someone who has been abused or mistreated that they ‘should’ do anything? It’s just not helpful. I have also been witness to people who have faces contorted with bitterness many years after an event has caused them deep pain. When I see this I am certainly left feeling sad. I don’t think there is a clear cut answer to the unforgiveness question but I do have some thoughts that I hope might be helpful.
Firstly, I don’t think you can rush or force forgiveness. If you try to, it usually ends up with feelings of guilt and self-blame as people desperately try to do something they just aren’t able to do. So, my advice is to take all the pressure off. Stop trying to forgive. Perhaps just work towards an idea that in an ideal world you would like to feel more at peace with what happened one day.
Secondly, try changing your outlook on forgiveness. Forgiveness is NOT saying that what the perpetrator did was ok. Far from it. My perspective is that when I choose to forgive someone who has deeply wronged me I am choosing to see them as a flawed human being. That’s it. That is no excuse, but it is an explanation. When I am in a place to forgive I am saying that I choose peace. I choose a future that is free of, if not the pain of what was done to me, at least free of the ‘why’. Sometimes the ‘why’ can’t be answered and letting go of the need to get the question answered can be a huge release.
Thirdly, when I forgive I choose not to waste my pain and suffering. I see that in the wound there is always a lesson. I choose to be brave enough to consider, over time, what those lessons might be.
Finally, if you decide that the pain is too great to forgive. That’s ok. No one knows how it feels except you. So no one has the right to judge you. You look after your own heart and sometimes just the fact that you are still getting up every day is enough for now.
Love to you all.
Gemima x
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